Homesick

When people say they're homesick, are they sick for their home or the illusion of what their home used to be?

I have a feeling that I just can't shake. It's not happiness, but its not quite misery. And don't tell me its that 1L fear of God bullsh*t. I know i'm not supposed to know everything there is to know about law school. Lord knows veteran attorneys don't know how to survive: unless you count advice on switching off between coffee and alochol as "survival." Hm...

Anyway, when I first arrived in Costa Mesa, I found myself missing DC more than I would like to disclose. Then I made friends, and now, I just long for a night where I can leave my apartment, walk up the dreaded hill in Courthouse and hang out at Ragtime until I got bored. But can we say I'm homesick? Can we chalk it up to lonliness? Or perhaps I'm just so stressed with school that I just want things to be the way they were?

To be honest, I have no idea. I just know that everytime I want to talk to someone familiar, its late at night pacific standard time, so you know its late where you folks are at. I miss going out on the weekends, playing kickball, impromptu happy hours, Football at Summers, sitting outside the Arlington Courthouse smoking/conversing, making money, Metro and most importantly, all of you. I miss the familiarity of DC life and I want it back.

I may have been born and raised in the Bay Area, but I would give anything right now to come home.